11th of May performance at Bourne hall to the second years

Todays performance went grrrrrrrrrrreat! (frosties tiger impression)

I feel that today was a proper performance as we had an audience (the second years) which I really appreciated as not only were they there to encourage and support us, but they could also give us useful feedback after we'd finished.

Although I feel today was my best performance so far I feel like I'm still not doing my best. I'm not embaressed or anything so I don't know what it is, it's like a physical block! I think I just don't believe that I'm good enough or something.. who knows.

The baby section went a lot better than last time and I was trying to really visualise that I was holding a baby. The only thing that was a bit odd there was that I couldn't see Ryan so I didn't know when he dropped his baby or when to turn around. But other than that it was fine and I tried not to show the panic I was feeling inside!!

I can't wait till tomorrow, especially the 7pm performance because I think the atmosphere is going to be great and I want to show my friends and family how hard I've worked and to prove that I can do this. Even though I am trying really hard at the moment, I want to push myself even more tomorrow, and I really will try my absolute best (I know I say this every time) but I will!