I just feel like it's a neccesity that I put this on my blog so he never forget this.
In todays warm up I really really enjoyed it because it was very fun and energetic and Jamie made it entertaining for us (and definitely himself) by giving us odd things to do.
The warm up was basically races, but Jamie would shout out a way to race and we had to do that. For example I had to run like Phoebe from friends, (which I'm ashamed to admit was really fun) and Ryan had to run like a dog (which he took far too seriously).
But yeah I just wanted to inform people that Jamie split his pants. And I love the fact that he couldn't sit normally because of it, THANKS FOR THE LOLS JAMIE.
Wednesday, 11 May 2011
11th of May performance at Bourne hall to the second years
Todays performance went grrrrrrrrrrreat! (frosties tiger impression)
I feel that today was a proper performance as we had an audience (the second years) which I really appreciated as not only were they there to encourage and support us, but they could also give us useful feedback after we'd finished.
Although I feel today was my best performance so far I feel like I'm still not doing my best. I'm not embaressed or anything so I don't know what it is, it's like a physical block! I think I just don't believe that I'm good enough or something.. who knows.
The baby section went a lot better than last time and I was trying to really visualise that I was holding a baby. The only thing that was a bit odd there was that I couldn't see Ryan so I didn't know when he dropped his baby or when to turn around. But other than that it was fine and I tried not to show the panic I was feeling inside!!
I can't wait till tomorrow, especially the 7pm performance because I think the atmosphere is going to be great and I want to show my friends and family how hard I've worked and to prove that I can do this. Even though I am trying really hard at the moment, I want to push myself even more tomorrow, and I really will try my absolute best (I know I say this every time) but I will!
I feel that today was a proper performance as we had an audience (the second years) which I really appreciated as not only were they there to encourage and support us, but they could also give us useful feedback after we'd finished.
Although I feel today was my best performance so far I feel like I'm still not doing my best. I'm not embaressed or anything so I don't know what it is, it's like a physical block! I think I just don't believe that I'm good enough or something.. who knows.
The baby section went a lot better than last time and I was trying to really visualise that I was holding a baby. The only thing that was a bit odd there was that I couldn't see Ryan so I didn't know when he dropped his baby or when to turn around. But other than that it was fine and I tried not to show the panic I was feeling inside!!
I can't wait till tomorrow, especially the 7pm performance because I think the atmosphere is going to be great and I want to show my friends and family how hard I've worked and to prove that I can do this. Even though I am trying really hard at the moment, I want to push myself even more tomorrow, and I really will try my absolute best (I know I say this every time) but I will!
Tuesday, 10 May 2011
What did you not enjoy?
Jamie I'm so so so so sorry, but here I go again..
I didn't like the baby section! I don't know why I dislike it so much but I do! I'm just never connected to my 'baby' and I'm not confident with the movement. HOWEVER, having said this, I know how to improve it and make it enjoyable.
I am going to rehearse the baby section with Jenny tomorrow morning cause we will be in early (as always ;}) and I will ask her to go over the baby section with me until I am 548272642381728% sure of the movement and intention I should have, also once I am confident with the movement I will be more likely to spread out and find my own space for this section. Just because I don't like it though, I won't drop the energy or make it look un-effective. I'll try my best!
I didn't like the baby section! I don't know why I dislike it so much but I do! I'm just never connected to my 'baby' and I'm not confident with the movement. HOWEVER, having said this, I know how to improve it and make it enjoyable.
I am going to rehearse the baby section with Jenny tomorrow morning cause we will be in early (as always ;}) and I will ask her to go over the baby section with me until I am 548272642381728% sure of the movement and intention I should have, also once I am confident with the movement I will be more likely to spread out and find my own space for this section. Just because I don't like it though, I won't drop the energy or make it look un-effective. I'll try my best!
What did you enjoy?
I enjoy doing the ghost line, that's my favourite bit! I just feel like I'm really there in the moment, and I tried to be creative by putting a character to this part. My story is that I hung myself, and then regretted it because I'm not ready to die. So whilst I am walking around in the library I am rubbing my neck and rolling my head to try and symbolise this. Also I like the way that me and Ryan connect at the end as if he is the one helping me into the light, and at the very end he's holding me close to him and I feel like that represents that I can't face dying on my own so he is guiding me along.
I love that part and I know that will capture the audience as everyone is so focused and has the right intention, its a great ending to the piece, we just have to remember to spread out!!
I love that part and I know that will capture the audience as everyone is so focused and has the right intention, its a great ending to the piece, we just have to remember to spread out!!
Were you in the moment?
Was I in the moment? That's a multiple answer question. Yes AND no!
I was in parts, because I know my intention for the majority of it, especially when we are doing the sqaures bit and the ghost like, I know my intention and I know my story behind what I am doing so I am feeling like I am there in the moment.
HOWEVER
When it gets to the baby section (Jamie probably wants to slap me the amount I complain about this bit!) I am not confident about my movement and I am not connecting to the cardigan as if it is a baby. I think I'm too busy counting in my head to make sure I get the timing right and I don't want to mess up. But I will practise the baby section tomorrow morning as I know I'll be in early and Jenny will be more than willing to help me, so I will do that and then I'm sure I can improve that section.
(JUST BECAUSE I DON'T PARTICULARLY LIKE THE SECTION, DOESN'T MEAN I CAN LET THE ENERGY DROP AND LOSE THE INTENTION OR CONNECTION I SHOULD HAVE.)
I was in parts, because I know my intention for the majority of it, especially when we are doing the sqaures bit and the ghost like, I know my intention and I know my story behind what I am doing so I am feeling like I am there in the moment.
HOWEVER
When it gets to the baby section (Jamie probably wants to slap me the amount I complain about this bit!) I am not confident about my movement and I am not connecting to the cardigan as if it is a baby. I think I'm too busy counting in my head to make sure I get the timing right and I don't want to mess up. But I will practise the baby section tomorrow morning as I know I'll be in early and Jenny will be more than willing to help me, so I will do that and then I'm sure I can improve that section.
(JUST BECAUSE I DON'T PARTICULARLY LIKE THE SECTION, DOESN'T MEAN I CAN LET THE ENERGY DROP AND LOSE THE INTENTION OR CONNECTION I SHOULD HAVE.)
What feelings were conjured in the performance?
At the end of the performance I was happy to see that we had grasped the attention of the majority of the audience. I feel like we put the message across that we were trying to, and by speaking to Charlottes mum after we performed, she said she was very impressed and did understand parts of it. I know that personally I get very emotionally connected with the piece, especially at the end when we are in the ghost line. I feel like I am showing it through my face, and I hope the audience can tell the emotional journey I am taking through my body language and the way I am representing it.
How were you feeling before and after?
BEFORE:
- Before we performed I was nervous and excited, but more excited. The only section I was worried about was the baby section because I am definitely not confident in that section (and I mucked it up big time today). I think it's good to be nervous though because its natural for a performer to be nervous before they perform (Even Gaga admits that she gets really nervous! Okay I'll stop talking about her now..) and now I have experienced performing properly, I will be less nervous for the other performances and have an idea of what to expect from the audience.
- Afterwards I felt happy because the majority of it went well, but I couldn't help feeling like I'd let the piece down as I was practically the only one that made obvious mistakes. I just wish that I could be confident in what I'm doing and be able to grasp dance as easily as most of the class can. However now I have had a go at performing properly, I'm ready for tomorrow and I'm going to bring more intention and dynamic to my performance. Also at the moment I'm getting ridiculously hot when I'm performing and my hair is flying all in my face so for the rest of the performances (no matter how butters a.k.a flora I look) I will keep my hair tied out of my face!!
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